#LSUFMConfessions: I love him. He loves me

I wanna keep it real. WARNING THIS IS NOT A LOVE STORY OF THE STAR-CROSSED LOVERS LIKE ROMEO AND JULIET. I love him. He loves me. But both of us have commitment to other person. I have a boyfriend, he has, well a girlfriend. Kapoy english. Anyway, yes tinuod ni. Our love was true or is it? Ga ila mi sa PolSci subject. I was being me the usual. I wanted to meet new people so natural pud sa akoa ang pagka sabaan,talkative, bubbly, prangka, maldita and friendly. I don't usually talk to people nga feeling nako di ganahan nako.

And then I met him. He's bubbly, talkative and loud. He's like a boy version of who I was. I find him attractive. Not in a romantic way ha pero like kana bang you wanted to be friend him because you know magka sinabtanay mi. So we did. Nagka friends mi. We share the same jokes sa class and then I had really fun sa class. So permi mi mag chat and text. And kada gabiee mo ana ko nyag I have to talked to my boyfriend. Dayun mo sabot raman sya. And then later on nagka wa pud ang communication sakong uyab so murag nalingaw ra sab ko kay seriously sya ang type sa person nga di ka ma bore. And I know na feel pud to nya towards me ( kay gi ingnan man ko nya yikes). All caps kaaung katawa and ang topic tag tulo. Paspas pa jud kaau mo reply. Now girls tell me? Who the heck wouldn't like that right? Nya kami sakong uyab bi? Bugnaw na kaau maskin ako to myself naningkamot ko nga di mi mo abot ana nga point sa akong uyab. By the way LDR mi, naa syag manila ako sa cebu.

By time goes by I get to know him better. Kanang kibaw ka kung kanus a sya down og kanus a sya ga problema maskin wa sya mi ingon nimo kay mao lang imong na feel. And then sakto pa jud. And then our friendship goes to a whole lot better. Man laag nami, go to some place outside the city. Without the consent of his girlfriend. Kay hate ko sa iyang uyab. Gi selosan nako sa iyang uyab kay he always talk about me sa iyang friend nga friend pud sa iyang uyab. Mao to nagka laum among friendship. Of course ako kay open man gud akong uyab ako syang ingnan not until one time we went outside the city and super kusog ang uwan so di mi ka uli. Taas sab kaau ang baha dayun mahadlok ko bsn ma ungot ang makina sakong picanto. So wa na namo gi push manguli we stayed sa hotel and it happen. No wa mi ga toot but we kissed torridly. I can feel his hard manhood under my pants pero I pushed him kay dili ko kay virgin ko. Pero nakasala nami by just kissing. I felt the butterflies in my stomach. And then na sundan. Sa barko, we went to bohol. We did not do IT. Foreplay lang. Hangtod nagka blurry na jud mi sakong uyab. Wa jud nako na feel nga importante ko sa akong uyab kay he never give time on me. Kana bang maskin skype, call or text man lang iyang mabuhat para sa among relationship kay di jud nya mabuhat. And here comes this guy who does better.

Until one night, i was busy doing my thesis para graduation mi ngaris syas bay ga dag coffee. Na touch kay ko kay ga bilar sya with me. Gina encourage ko nya ba nga "kaya na nimo ikaw pa" laum na kaaung gabiee pero wa mi bastos gibuhat. We talked about life nanu ingon ani mi ka suod. Ingon pa sya nga sa Pol sci daw namo nga class gi tuyo nya nga opposite mi og team para ig debate maka storya sya nako. Ig naay group work tuyuon nya nga group mi arun maka spend syag time nako. Dayun mag selos sya bsta naa koy ka storya nga laki maskin kibaw sya nga wa syay right daw ba. Pati ako wa ko ga expect nga magka suod mi arun. Sa ka laum sa gabie kalit syag ingon og "i love you" wa ko ka tingog. I want to say it too pero di pude. Instead I kissed him and he smiled. Mi ana kog di ko nimo ma pili over sa imong uyab kay unsay laban nako sa inyung 2 years. Kami sakong uyab 1 year and 5 months ra. His girlfriend is close to his family di sya ganahan madaot ang paglantaw sa iyang family sa iyaa. Labi na sa mama sa girl kay ganahan kaau sa iyaa.

After that night normal. Ni abot ang panahon nga complicated na kaau ang tanan. Sige na syag ka awayan sa iyang uyab. Dayun I BROKE UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND. Wa nami communication tungod sa busy nya. Pero sya wa nya biyae iyang girlfriend. And I am totally fine with that. Sige syag ingon nako nga ikaw akong happiness. But the commitment he has with his girlfriend I totally respect that. And then I realize without any help nga di jud maau among gi buhat. Tho sige syag ingon ako iyang happiness. I'm too pretty to be a kabit jusko. Nanu mahangol man kos gugma nga di akoa when there's that somebody offering me an ocean when he can only offer me a pond. So ni laylo ko. Pero sakit kaau looking back at our photos btaw? Kami FIRST TIME TO NYA AND FIRST TIME NAKO. All the stuff we did? After a few months, I went back to ozamiz graduate nako, nami.

Then 1 year after nagkita mig balik sa cebu kay dadto man ko ga work na. The feeling is okay. We hang out kay friends pud bya mi. I heard nga naburos iyang uyab. Pero di siya ang amahan. Kung di iyang bestfriend. And right now I am typing this one all the way from Hong Kong. One of my friend in fb posted this one man gud. I'm in Hong Kong with him nga sauna torrid kiss ra akong mahatag pero karun iyang apilido na akong gi dala. We got married after 4 years. His vows " I am happy I took that leap of happiness. " Lesson: Go chase your happiness. USC alumni ICC alumni

- Key&John | I Was Made For Loving You

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